Sebutir Pengalaman Biasa

Tatkala aku merenung ke dalam kekosongan,
Di antara rakan-rakan sekerjaku,
Yang sedang sibuk berbual bicara,
Pada ketika kami berehat dari limpahan kerja,
Aku tidak lagi terasa asing,
Tidak lagi,
Setelah sekian lama;
Aku mengukir senyuman ikhlas ketika disapa,
Senyuman dibalas dengan gelak tawa,
Mereka yang telah biasa dengan kehidupan sebegitu;
Ingatan yang sebegitu asli,
Teringinku mengabadikannya.

Aku dengan tenangnya,
Memilih tempat di antara rakan,
Aku bersila lalu memulakan perjalanan mindaku sekali lagi,
Mata penaku,
Ku izinkannya menari di atas hamparan kertas kosong,
Tariannya membuahkan suatu corak kehidupan yang abstrak,
Yang sememangnya menggambarkan watak diriku;
Aku sudah terlalu biasa memencilkan diriku,
walaupun di antara kawan,
mereka tidak pernah menyedarinya,
sememangnya aku tidak kebosanan,
sebab memang hendak aku sedemikian;

Pada masa aku tidak berbuat apa,
Terasa aman dan tenang pula pada ketika itu,
Dan dalam ketenangan itu,
Aku gemar membiarkan mindaku berfantasi,
Membayangkan sesuatu yang mustahil di alam nyata.

Begitulah kerjaku di waktu rehatku,
Tatkala aku berada di latihan praktikal industriku.

My Definition of Memory

Its strange for me to pen this down actually .... and I didn't just wrote it from nothing . Now, here's something that I would to share with my friends; something which I wrote half a decade ago, back when I was still in high school.

And it goes like this .................

Memories thrive in the space of our mind and they remind us of the deeds and actions that we have done. They exist in a very simple manner but yet, they do not fade away as easy as that. Sweet ones make us laugh and brightens our days but bitter ones torments the conscious mind with flashes of unpleasant thoughts.
So, what is the meaning of memory ? Well, to me, it is a collection of thoughts that are derived from our actions which will in time, act as reminders of the past. Memories, irrespective of time and views, help to nurture of mental and emotional growth to make us more mature and responsible in life. That is why I believed that in order to achieve a high level of satisfaction in life, we must embrace all sorts of memory and utilise them to push us to do better.
Memories act as an impenetratable border between the past and the present. They allow us to feel younger again as in the past when we immersed ourselves in our thoughts; reminding us of our past actions that have affected our present lives. They grant us a chance to reflect on our past and uniquely, offer us imaginary thoughts to the other possible outcomes should we had attempted other choices which we did not took in the past. They allow us to appreciate and evaluate our actions so that we can learn and improve ourselves as not to humiliate ourselves in the future by the same manner.
They can be revived in many ways such as through a similiar action that had taken place then and is again happening now. They can be triggered by the conscious mind and also in dreams when we encountered similiar events that resemble the past. By looking at certain articles and stuffs, we can also be reminded of them.
I bet all of us have many varied experiences when it comes to this issue. Fond memories are the ones which we would like to keep fresh and if possible, immortalize them.They fill our time by allowing us to shut our eyes and relive our happy times again or even change the outcomes mentally according to our likings. They at times, can help to eradicate feelings of loneliness and thus, alleviate stress and unnecessary worries.
Needless to mention of the negative ones. They provoke thoughts that tend to weaken our emotions and instil fear in us. They took their time in the past but yet they return to remind us of our failures and shortcomings. They darken our days and make us vulnerable to emotional breakdowns if not handled properly.
I have always been a staunch supporter of the motion that memories are very easy to form but they are very hard to erase. Thus, we should by all effort, distance ourselves from negative issues which might bring about all of these. As for me, memories come about in many but strange ways. But I believed that if properly utilized, they can serve as great mentors and motivators when we are in distress........................................

(adapted from my articles in high school)

1st & Last - IT exp

Pictures do speak a thousand words, say many. And I couldn't agree more. Sigh... having through one whole month of industrial training at my working place (taxation firm), I've actually gotten used to the place already. Working with numbers daily; from computing this to that and toying with softwares all related to numbers. I was so contended with what I was doing.
I was accompanied by 3 others like me during my first month at there. But they left my working place just days ago; one to pursue her studies, one just finished his IT and another looking for a job. My employer treated us to a 6-course meal at HIKENG to show appreciation to those 3 persons. We enjoyed that well. These guys were really cooperative with me, which helped me blend in so quickly to my new working life. Guys, I really appreciate it and will of course, miss your absence from our working place. It has been a little dull (haha). Anyway, I wish the best for you guys. Cya.